Farewell lil 7 months old sister

 I can still see the post of asking help on her antibiotics. Sadly it wasnt given any help not even a cent. 

She was able to make it out though after 1 week at the hospital and with antiobiotics that were costly. 

A very happy and bubbly little girl. She would smile at me from a distance. I tried carrying her but sometimes cries and still looks for the people who always are there for her. And I was busy with the hospital and other requirements. So i was also maintaining a distance to not get her anything but then this chubby and healthy looking baby no one knew she will one day succumb to death so early. Many say if it's God time there is none stopping it. 

My father arrived Oct. 4th. He was able to assist with taking care of her. My father was changed man. He was calmer and humble looking then before. He spent more time with family then friends. Well maybe due to covid who knows. 

Together with my stepmom they had lil baby vaccinated at the nearest health center in the baranggay. She was declined vaccination at the hospital due to covid when she was a few months old. 

At 7months and a few days of having high fever. One night she fainted and lost pulse. At that time I was sleeping (I am a csr with American timings).

I could say maybe just maybe I could have saved her with cpr. 😭

My brother woke me up and asked me to call our dad. At that time my stepmom already rushed her to the hospital. But sadly I realized i had his old number. Later on he arrived. My brother was anxious and distraught. My father didnt like how he was reacting and they had a little arguement. 

Later on I heard a loud falling object noise near my window went down to check if someone else heard it and see if something fell down. Nothing the nanny of my daughter said. And so i decided to call to check my stepmom. It was her sister who answered the call. She broke down in tears and said Meghan was gone. She didnt make it. 

I was in shock. In denial and very surprised. Tears fell down non stop. I went out and told the rest. One brother didnt believe so I called again the same number and it was Papa who answered and told him. Everyone was in tears at home. 

Asking why? Asking why not bring her to the hospital and not the clinic? Why at a young age? Why when she looked so healthy? 

The next day they brought her body in a lil casket. My stepmom and her other relatives were wailing and mourning. 

My other brother said not to go down as I will be exhausted but I just cant be that insensitive. Tears is what i can only offer now. The pain and anguish unexplainable mix feeling. 

So the thought entertained me if that happened to me would i be able to move on? 

My daughter has leukemia and i am even struggling financially with her daily chemotherapies, laboratories, medicines and necessities. Only God knows for how long I can take it. 2 years is like a very long way ahead and there will always be bumps ahead. 

I raise it all up to Papa God and Brother Jesus. I dont understand his plans but i hope it will be a good one. 🙏🥺

May they welcome my baby sister up in heaven. Rest in peace our sweet angel. 

A single mother's journey with a 3 year old only daughter with Acute Lymphoblastic Leukemia during a chaotic pandemic

 The day that my younger brother told me to call the doctor because her case was much worse than a mere anemia. She was on 4 days blood transfusion. Had on and off fever due to SEPSIS. Her weakened immune system wasn't able to fight off 2 kinds of bacteria in her blood. She had to stay at the hospital for another week and another doctor to look at her condition. Her chemo treatment was delayed as well.

At that time I was super worried, had sleepless night and even collapsed at work. I decided to seek advice from HR and they told me that all they can do is let me go. But to be honest if they were as strict as the other companies they will not let me do so. Since I owe the company negative credit leaves that were used during lockdown and the emergency cash advance I need to partially still pay around 760aed. Yet they gracefully lift that and book me a flight home. Owwa was able to handle returning ofws well covering the expenses of the swab test and quarantine hotel. Even booked a free flight to Cebu and again put in a quarantine hotel. That time I spent singing songs of praise and worship to God. Praying for my daughter's full recovery and health restored.

We partially paid 113,000 for her 1 week stay at the hospital. Her final bill came to 207,000  amounting to more than 300,000 php worth of hospital bill. That is even less with Philhealth. It is still pretty high. 

My family went all out and borrowed money from family and friends. 

The CHAMP from the house of the mayor was approved by 30k. Thanked God but still for the next time they required a voters certificate. 

I unfortunately was an Overseas Filipino Worker for 2 years in UAE and have not voted ever since. I didnt thought my registration has such expiry. I am not even updated in paying with Phil health but luckily they allowed us to pay what so it can be updated. It helped a bit with the bills. 

Depression sips in as her Chemo therapy is every week bill estimate amounts to 25,000php. As part of her intensive treatment procedure. Her type of cancer is curable but to such amount of medical bills is overwhelming. I am a single mother currently jobless to walk and complete her paperwork. To also personally look after her. 

We can't transfer her to a public hospital as one of the foundations I sought help said that they even advice those patients to be transferred elsewhere due to the mixture of old and young patients and long lines. Totally exposing the weaken immune system of the cancer patients. They die from infections rather than the cancer itself. 

She had her first chemo therapy on August 12, Wednesday. Her payment to that first chemo is from the donations compiled around 30k. So it is less with Philhealth it is around 25k. 

I am still waiting for the medical abstract and protocol from the doc to be submitted to Kythe and other foundations. I even need to go to DSWD as they didn't gave me a social case study that was also required. They told me I need to ask that from PCSO but they told me they dont require such. 

DSWD main only accepts provincial request so I had to go to DSWD in labangon so far they gave me 3k as a financial assistance but they also told me their budget is getting low due to covid. Some other asked why only 3k when others got 10 to 15k. That I do not know and maybe because of the interview. As they ask what was my job and other family members job. Sure my father is a seafarer but i still have alot of brothers and sister that needs to finish school. My youngest sister is still 6 months old.

I even cried today because my father said to use the money he sent for my other younger brother's tuition. I felt guilty that my brother's college schooling will be affected. He saw me crying and I asked forgiveness. He told me he is fine to stop for a year if it will extend the life of his niece. He said he will work for now to also help out the family. 😭😭😭😭

Trials in life

My daughter was first hospitalized year 2017 at the age of 6 months old due to pneumonia due to her negligent smoking nanny.

Now she is 3 years old and her x-ray result shows pneumonia and now the worst part is she also has anemia partnered with it.
We tried home remedy but she ended up not eating and vomiting. All public hospitals declined her admission. No choice but to bring her to a private and expensive one.

She already have 2 blood donors giving her blood support. Still her blood test is low and they needed to determine the cause by bone marrow biopsy.

I am currently waiting for the result and need to speak with the doctor personally despite being far. I hope to God it isnt as what I dreaded it to be.

Worst part is I am not at her side. Prayers and kinds would be appreciated.

No help is big or small as long as it is heartily given. 

You can donate through:

Metrobank

Jenny Lyn E. Young

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Warm greetings from Dubai

Hello there!


It's been a long time of no update indeed. So I finally was able to because of Christmas break. I've been really really busy with pure work since i got here and hardly got extra time. But i could slip to update one or two social websites.

So how was it you might wonder hmm
No cafe hoping if you ask me.
And venturing into the art industry is
A bit of a shocker now that everything has evolved or modernized. I still found that here is out of my comfort zone and that i really have to step up big time.

Been tough with all this culture and work shock but all has its ups and down or pros and cons.

I also found out more of myself here.
Of how it really is like working upfront
And facing real live action customers.
Totally different from just answering them by phone. And also having to deal with living under someone's  supervision and rules.

I think i was too naive and was too blinded or trusting but we all learn from our mistakes and for sure will be very very careful next time in making choices.  It all boils down in proper research and weighing.





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When will Coronavirus end? (Parody of when will my life begin Tangled)

I have seen a couple of parody from this song. So what the heck I also decided to make one. Since we have lots of freetime in our hands now do we? Something to remember by once this whole shebang is all over. 

Guess who I'm painting? Oppa!

Well my reference was Lee Min Ho.



Who wouldn't know about him he is the well known actor and model of alot of famous korean dramas. I loved him at The Legend of the deep blue sea. Boys over flowers was ok but didnt really watched it since I saw Meteor Garden and know the story just change of characters. The Heirs I didnt watch but I keep hearing about it so yeah I am spoiled already so it took my interest and maybe some other time. I think I watched personal taste it is a good light romantic comedy series. I loved his gentleman character there.



Anyhoos Why I painted him. Aside that I like him. Remember I made an art on a half korean child model. Which has striking resemblance with my daughter in some why. So yeah hehehe I am hoping for a husband in the form of resembling Lee Min Ho. Well it is free to dream and hope for the best of what future will bring. Who knows I will be looking back at this post years from now. And laugh about it. XD

Painting Pretty Princess Serenity (Sailormoon)

Lol it isnt obvious that i recently discovered I can share my youtube channel to my blogspot. XD



Imma just flood my post with forwarded works.



Enjoy~!

Howl from Howl's moving castle Coffee Art

First time trying out coffee art. Lol need to have a well diluted powder or else it'll give a messy look. Then I had to wait for it to dry so the coat I will paint is more darker. Takes time maybe if you blow dry it then it will be more faster. Anyhoos the smell of coffee remains like a stain on the table or any cloth. Smells nice indeed.

Flower girl Timelapse speed painting

Just making use of the free time we have before work starts again.

Hoping everyone is save and sound at where ever they are.

Quarantine Stay at home illustration

This reminds me of those destressing coloring books. 

Coloring is really therapeutic. 

Keeps your mind off some things. 

Im an introvert but i do find pleasure in going to new places or eating out with some good friends and family. 

It is important to be always updated on the outside but if things get alittle too much (stressful) information then we can divert to other activities. 

Others cope by doing exercises, watching movies/series, painting (me), blogging, cooking and tiktoking. (M2m) 

Finding our positive vibes in this virus ridden world. 

Just a gentle reminder to better be safe at home than sorry. 

Take care everyone and God bless us all. 

Laundry bottle recycled to organizer (D.I.Y)

You can see alot of tutorials and DIY in youtube and facebook. 

Reason why I dont throw away the big laundry bottles. Not only bec I am stingy but I like to tinker and paint if bored or art frenzied. 

Sadly I dont have gesso (white primer). The acrylic paints and markers would have stayed well. Anyways I usually put satin varnish to seal the colors.  

 If you don't have the proper cutting materials it is hard to contour the curves using just a regular cutter. It shortened my blade and broke 2 times.

I cut my finger along the process too. Don't worry it was just a tiny scratch not life threatening. Not a kid friendly task if you ask me. 

Usually you soften the edges by using a lighter. But I am not a smoker and the flatmate I usually borrow from is on vacation. 

Probably first and last time I'm making this. 

Fruits basket a non new year painting

 I was looking for an inspiration to paint.

It was right in front of me. 

I did some photography shoots.

A few days later...

The spirit of laziness left and I began to paint. 🎨

I was almost tempted to put a face somewhere in the painting. 😅🤭🙈

Modern Mona Lisa (acrylics on watercolorpaper)

 We have this daily challenge at work.
So I thought to make something like this. But it turned out they wanted a wacky remake not an exact painting.

It was a quick paint. I thought it was done but then the one I painted said her chin was too long and her face was fat. Lol 

I gave this to her as a present. 

So this was my entry for that said challenge.

A portrait birthday gift for my brother

Some artists draw using the grid method. Thus they can perfectly copy a certain picture. 

For me I like to do it in freehand but still use the guidelines for anatomy. 

See the strong anime cartoony influence. It never goes away.

After that I then put in a collage app to compare the difference. 🤭 

Looks kinda realistic now.

I had fun shading the skin. But I need a reallllllyy fine brush to do the details right.

 Running low now with white acrylic paint.

A lil lighting tweak at an editting app did the job.

Garden of Annalyn (acrylics on canvas)

So?! 

Here we go again. 

I originally just wanted to paint a garden scene.

But I figured I wanted a silhouette of a lady wearing a hat or some lady spreading her arms.  It kinda felt empty for nature to be without a human. 

But I found none to my liking. 

And i tried searching in my album.  None. 

I then stalked the pictures of my EX.

Just kidding 

🤭

I looked for my cousin's fb albums and

Then to my sister's fb album. 

Finally saw something that'll fit the background.

I dunno when can I just make a scenic painting without getting distractions. 

Anyways turned out great. This will be my gift to her. 

To be coated with satin varnish.

Sweet dreams my lil one (acrylics on canvas)

I was planning to only do background paintings as that is not my strong point. As I looked at my portfolio it was all anime style and realistic portraits. 

My concept or plan was to do only dream catchers in random size and design. 

I wanted to add quotes but was stuck with words Sweet dreams.

But then it looked like a book cover title. 

The Illustrator in me kicked in.

Thus made me search a silhouette of a sleeping child. I found none with my desired angle. So I browse through my gallery and found a sleeping picture of my daughter. (Who knew it would come in handy?!) 

And so it made me do this. 

Yeah I also need to work on my calligraphy skills. Hehe

First time commuting via E BIKE and buying dried fish in TABO AN

It has been probably almost 2 years since I was in the Philippines. So this E-bike thing is something new to me. This 2 back seater extension motorcycle is a little more expensive than the jeepneys but still if you need to go home badly this is still better than taxi. 

Anyhoos now I went to the Tabo-an market to buy a colleagues' requested dried fish.

I was kind of shocked to know that 1 kl. of Danggit dried fish costs around 700php.

I only bought 300 worth as per budget given by my colleague.

Then I posted this on facebook and was even more shookt that 700 is even cheaper

at times it goes up 800 to 1000php. 

This is absolutely not a poor man's fish. People making this as a business are making a fortune. 

Imagine probably getting more than those nice smelling office workers whose basic rate per day is 500php. Im sure some of these fish market vendors either earn 1k-10k per day if lucky to get a sale from huge buyers/resellers. 

Some people are cut out for business some people are satisfied with the office and minimum wage pay like I do at times. 

What a day trip it was. 

Keep safe everyone. 

I went there before any lockdowns and reported cases in the Philippines.