Sunday, February 8, 2026

Sending prayers to heaven

We used to go here at Basilica del Santo Nin̈o Church to give thanks on her birthdays. That is why ever since she gained wings and left this world I seldom visit the churches we used to go to. 

I got scared of publicly breaking down in tears bec of the memories and prayers we shared that might overwhelm me. And somehow that sting of disappointment our prayers of healing were not answered. But still grateful for her living extended years. 

As some relatives want me to move on like a snap of a finger it is not easy. Maybe it would have if I didnt love her too much. 

To all the places we went that made us happy now brings tears to my eyes as memories of that recollects. 

This took extra courage to send prayers on her special day. Still teary eyed and holding it back as I went home. 


#happybdaynak 

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#cancercutslivesshort 

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Us on her 1st bday 

             Now she celebrates up in heaven 



















I ordered a 3d lil mini her online it was a bit pricey but they were legit.  




Saturday, January 31, 2026

Mingkay and kittens

Last year I moved to a new place after my daughter died. I usually just leave food outside the house for some cats to feed on. I didnt plan to own a cat bec i have fishes in an aquarium inside. 

During the storm Tino there was this used to be pregnant calico cat who i took in for temporary shelter bec it was raining so hard. I asked her where are her babies bec I knew she had a full tummy before. Then later days came she brought me her one black and white male kitten. Then next day a ginger male and following day a ginger female. These 3 lil ones now lived with me. And Mingkay the mommy calico cat is now pregnant again hahah goodness. But i am sure she didnt always want to get pregnant as the male cats outside does harrass the females. One time I saw she had a wound at the back of her neck. I did first aid and it was cured.

I already brought them to the vet for vaccination but only Mingkay had a shot as the lil ones doesnt look 3 months old and I dont know either but they do still breastfeed that is for sure. 

She is quite a good mommy in grooming and breastfeeding her lil ones although she doesnt stay in the house for so long and usually goes out when bored. My place isnt that big and the cat cage she isnt ok to be stuck in there. She is also used to freely catching mice. Yep the house is mice free. I dont need to set up any sticky mouse traps anymore. 

In return I have to care for her youngs and clean their poopsies hahaha. Mind you they never touched the fishies as I constantly remind them not to. Consequences would be kicking them out of shelter and comfort. Mingkay is very endering and no matter how I nag she just gives me a slow blink. Her lil ones Panda, Boy Luy A and Muning are the same. So eventually they start to grow on you and feels like family. 

Yep providing them with cat foods, litter, cage, toys, and lots of boxes. They love to snuggle in them. 

















In loving memory of Jasmeen Anne

 


My only daughter forever 8 year old. My pride and happiness yet also my greatest sorrow. A very bright and joyful child despite her condition of Acute Lymphoblastic Leukemia relapsing for 3 times.  

She was a grateful ever curious child. She endured all the pain and remained hopeful. Born this month of February. I would like to give her honor in this post. Where we had happy memories together. Moments and love to keep alive. She dreamed to travel the world, be a youtuber and art teacher. A dream that might come true in another life. She has a beautiful soul I know heaven would accept her back. 

An angel sent as well to save my soul. 









































































                       Her last painless smile 


Further than this were her last months of pain before losing her breath to cancer. Rest in peace my sweet lil fighter no more suffering here on earth. You are remembered and will never be forgotten. Jesus loves you and welcomes you back to heaven.